Friday, June 25, 2010

Prisms, and Women.

I discovered something today:

I have been graciously given the chance to come to Washington D.C. for a women's conference. While I have been here, I have been analyzing my outlook on women, particularly myself.

After a very enjoyable experience in the Air and Space Museum. I found myself standing in the line of a gift shop to buy a prism. You have each seen one before, a simple glass triangle that splits white light into its many colors. They really are beautiful objects, and so scientifically fasinating.

This prism perfectly describs my personallity. I enjoy science and math, and I have joy in my technical degree. I am very proud to be an Engineer, and I really believe that it is a part of my personality. Yet, I still love beautiful things. I love the science for its beauty! I love to get all dressed up, and spend hours decorating a room in a house!

This is why I believe to Organizations such as the Network of Enlightened Women. NeW provides an amazing support for conservative culture, and the attitude that feminism should have.

I got my frist blog posting on that blog, and I am very proud of it! Check it out!


Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Sweet Moments.

Life can be SO hard! Sometimes it is almost impossible to see beyond your own nose. But I am sure it is not supposed to be this way.

I have to say that I often feel like I have more hard days that fantastic days. But today, I realize that these sweet moments are so sweet.


Sunday, June 20, 2010


I needed to be reminded this week, that someone is taking care of me. Sometimes it is SO easy to forget, and so I wanted to remind all my readers that you aren't alone. Really, you aren't! I thought I was, but someone is watching out for all my needs and blessing me, I just have to sincerely ask. Which, I think is a fair agreement, I can do that :)

Kara Joy!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


This is me
the day after yesterday
Now I know,
that I am failing
This is me
Wanting healing, wanting peace
This is not
Who I was meant to be!

I might be wrong,
I might be right,
One thing's for certain
I'm sick of running,


Thursday, June 10, 2010

Bad Day.

I once found out that there were people who actually read this blog. I was really nervous, because I have this bad habit of only posting when I am depressed. I promised myself that wouldn't happen anymore. My blog was a place for happiness and success in my quest! But I find the need tonight to break that rule. I hope my post does not scare anyone, these are the thoughts of a broken heart, but a healing one.

Days like these are the obstacles in the quest. Sometimes, we want to disappear. Sometimes we wish it was all over. Sometimes we want to pretend it away, or ignore it. Sometimes, our minds wander the darkest of pathways. We have to acknowledge that we all cry, and scream, we all wish and wait for things to be better. We all hope, not matter how small, we pray for the daylight.

This is part of life. Given, not to make us bitter, but to make us better. I suppose we must each learn for ourselves the silver lining, or the other door, everyone tells me is open.

I suppose in the end, we all find our own special way to crawl back to our holes, to try and nurture the wounds. Only some of us are lions.......

I wish I was a lion.

As such, I am not a lion, so I crawl back into my hole.


Wednesday, June 9, 2010

What I Want (Tangent)

Today, all I could think about was food..... Here is what I want

Wienerschnizle cheese poppers
Ihop pankcakes, cream cheese and strowberries
ANY HUGE chimichanga, every type of salsa
Rubios fish tacos, with LOTS of lemon
Blizzard, french silk, please!
Snickerdoodles, and milk
Old Chicago Pizza, peperoni, why ruin a good thing? extra sauce please!
Hot Dogs, with relish and mustard (which is wierd, becaue i usually prefer hamburgers)
Grilled Cheese, perhaps a tuna melt, if you dont mind

It is amazing how you appreciate what you dont have.......

Hungry Kara

Monday, June 7, 2010

What I want: Part 2

#1 I have been thinking about friends a lot. I like friends. I like to be surrounded by people all the time. I think what I really want is two or three close "couple" friends. I like the idea of have a girl friend, who's husband/significant other is a great friend of my husband/significant other...... A couple who is in a similar place in life, one we see often, and enjoy. Kinda like the movies, but life is never the movies. Nonetheless it is something I want.

#2 I want a job. I do feel that this might be too General. One problem I have is that I have a hard time defining what I want here. But that is the point of this blog post! So here we go!
-Well paying!
-I want the job for experience, so I can relate to other workers.
-I seem to have an affinity to environmental topics, Water purification, alternate fuels, pollution. Not sure why, but I have enjoyed the topics when they come up in school.
-I love the idea of lab work and research. It is learning! It may be tedious and repetitive, but I love it!
-I like process design
-I like working with people
-I want to stay in Phoenix
-I am a hard worker, and I am willing to work hard and put forth the work needed, but I would prefer not to work ridiculous hours, as I don't want to get burnt out

#3 CAR! I think I want an SUV.....which surprises me. More on this when I figure it out better.


Sunday, June 6, 2010

What I want: Part I

There are a couple things it is REALLY easy to say I want.

#1 I want quads

I think that when my family is out quadding, we bond better than we ever do. We are all happy, because we are having fun, and thrilled to be outdoors. We all get along together and we create memories that last forever. Every time I go way too crazy on an ATV, I feel a thrill, and I feel freedom, and I think I actually know what life is about. I think it is a fantastic habit for a family!

#2 I want a piano, and to teach all my kids to be musically talented

Playing the piano is the number 1 way to "unstressify" me. I NEED it, more than I can explain!

#3 I want to get married!

This is actually quite an accomplishment! I think I often rejected a home life, because I was scared of being trapped, and bored. But I think that I can have everything I want, while making my goal to be a mother in Israel my number one priority!

So these are the easy ones! Though I have to say, that number 3 was not easy to come by, and I only believe it about 87%, the resit is faith!

I have discovered something this week...... Cooking makes me happy! Literally, it doesn't take as long as I thought it did, and I can make and entire batch of cookies, and not eat a SINGLE COOKIE, and I am so happy that I have made others happy by making them!!!!! I have literally made several meals, and not eaten a single bite, and I get a huge amount of joy from it! Cooking makes me happy! As such, this new discovery brings a whole new list of wants!

#1 Fully stocked Pantry,

All the herbs, and seasonings you can thing of from cinnamon to curry!
Pots, and pans GALORE! Everything, mixing bowls, rolling pins, measuring, and a MIXER!

#2 GOOD (easy, practical, yummy) cookbooks!

#3 People, to feed!

I have a small cookbook, full of family favorites, my goal for the summer, is to cook EVERYTHING in the cook book. Though it is slightly unrealistic, (58 recipes) I think, like Julia and Julia is sounds really fun! I am glad to discover something else that makes me happy!