tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71421589816093871622024-03-12T21:34:30.655-07:00Kara's Fantabulous Quest....Quest:(kwěst) n. The act or an instance of seeking or pursuing something; a search.Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.comBlogger72125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-50635620908459476512011-08-24T11:15:00.000-07:002011-08-24T11:25:15.140-07:00Reminiscence<p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;color:black;">I was listening to Pandora today and I found a song for me.... One of my favorites from years ago! Enjoy!</span>
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<br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;color:black;">You could be happy and I won't know
<br />But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
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<br />And all the things that I wished I had not said
<br />Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head
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<br />Is it too late to remind you how we were
<br />But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
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<br />Most of what I remember makes me sure
<br />I should have stopped you from walking out the door
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<br />You could be happy, I hope you are
<br />You made me happier than I'd been by far
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<br />Somehow everything I own smells of you
<br />And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
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<br />Do the things that you always wanted to
<br />Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
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<br />More than anything I want to see you, girl
<br />Take a glorious bite out of the whole world</span></p>
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<br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;color:black;">500 points if you can name the artist :) </span></p>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-8230779024144360642011-03-01T11:43:00.000-08:002011-03-01T11:45:20.949-08:00New Blog!Hey Everyone!<br /><br />Anyone?<br /><br />I have a new blog! I know I know, I may update this one every now and then, but I am pretty excited about the new one! Check it out!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.freshcleanbloomers.blogspot.com/"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">FreshCleanBloomers</span></a><br /><br />Enjoy! It is <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">fantanbulous</span>!<br /><br />KBKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-68186619259936095152010-11-09T09:25:00.000-08:002010-11-09T09:26:09.466-08:00Enough Said.<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jy9r6H-czWA">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jy9r6H-czWA</a>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-37857412827742115142010-10-14T23:38:00.000-07:002010-10-14T23:52:11.132-07:00FridayTomorrow, I am going to walk into work and the security guard is going to say "Welcome to Friday!" like he does every Friday, and it will make me <i>so</i> happy. I love Friday's. I was born on a Friday, my favorite Christmas memory was on a Friday, and.....well mostly, my birthday was on a Friday. But I now have an even better reason to love Friday <div><br /><div>I am going to get married on a Friday. </div><div><br /></div><div>Why? Because Friday is derived from the German "day of Frige" or the day of the Love Goddess, Kara... I mean Venus! (This of course I learned from Wikipedia and I wouldn't be surprised to find out it was wrong.) </div><div><br /></div><div>And Because I love Fridays.</div><div><br /></div></div><div>Thank goodness!</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-42937875778537456012010-09-27T22:11:00.000-07:002010-09-27T22:16:23.338-07:00Starting Over.I feel so much hope. <div><br /></div><div>I love being busy :) It makes me feel so important. Does everyone feel this way? or is this something that is just relevant to my personality?</div><div> </div><div>It takes so much energy to be positive. But I think it is like exercising. If you can manage to spend the energy for a short while, you are rewarded with double the energy! But just like exercise, the reward is not something that can be bought. </div><div><br /></div><div>I am so excited about this Christmas Choir that my friends and I work on. </div><div><br /></div><div>Apparently I have skin that mosquitoes love. Go figure. </div><div><br /></div><div>Oh, and by the way, I love ZB :) </div><div><br /></div><div>KP</div>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-78092323792867619042010-09-23T14:55:00.000-07:002010-09-23T15:10:53.434-07:00ExcedrinIt is so sad, but I have to admit that I have only survived this week <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">because</span> of copious <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">doses</span> of Excedrin. Though, I should admit that "copious" in Kara's dictionary actually means "to take the actual recomemded dosage on the back of the bottle."<br /><br />I have pretty much had a constant headache, as a result of tension and lack of sleep. Though I will admit that for once, it is NOT a result of dehydration. Right now I feel like buzzzing around in small circles from the caffiene in my system. I am struggling to calmly sit at a desk and work. Though I am sure that my coworkers would love to see me running in tiny circles, sometimes office life is just not exciting enough.<br /><br />The truth about today is that I have not found what I was looking for this week. I dont know the answers to my questions. I am still trying to decide what to do.<br /><br />Is it wrong that we tell our sons and daughters stories of Princesses, Love, Happiness and Romance when most of them wont find it? Is it wrong to dream for something perfect? Or does it only cause dissapointment? How can we get what we want, if we dont dream for what we want? We have to dream! We have to believe that we can get it! <strong><em>BUT</em></strong> how can we be happy if all we do is dream for things we can't have?<br /><br />I dont understnad.<br /><br />Thank Goodness Excedrin<br /><br />Kara JoyKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-1519970751928551272010-09-21T21:30:00.000-07:002010-09-21T21:33:56.727-07:00Seeing who I am.Today was a great day. It really was. But I need serious scriptures tonight for strength, and peace of mind. I wish I had time to run, I think it would help.<br /><br />It must be that I am a woman, but I feel like a million bucks, and I feel like bawling. I think (because I am SO tired!!!!) the first feeling lasted me all day, but now I will succumb to the second.<br /><br />KaraKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-11433708929937061392010-09-20T18:59:00.000-07:002010-09-20T20:56:18.356-07:00Joy and Black HolesI exercised twice today. Everyone has got to find their own methods of survival.<br /><br />There was a moment today when I felt happier than I have felt in a while. You know that feeling when you are so excited you feel like you are about to burst? I was afraid to breathe to deep or I might blow into a million pieces. Sometimes I feel <em>life</em> in me, and I was to scream for JOY! I wonder that I could ever dare feel sad when I have been given so much. But then, I remember those moments. The ones that come to you when you are alone. Where a pit starts to form in your chest. It might be fear, uncertainty, pain, anger, regret, or loneliness. This "black hole" (for lack of a better description, 'cause I would rather not dwell on this feeling long enough to figure our a good description) <em>sucks </em>the life right out of me. <em>I</em> think at those moments there is only one successful source of comfort. Heavenly Father. Ironic that those are the hardest moments to reach out to Him.<br /><br />I really have been blessed a lot recently. I have been given exactly what I needed to survive. I have also been given exactly what I needed to be allowed the circumstances to think and have appropriate alone time without distractions. I am grateful.<br /><br />Tomorrow I am going to focus on being happy for others. I am too jealous, and underneath I do know that I am happy for them, it is just time to show it.<br /><br />kp1Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-38761932422530454592010-09-17T23:41:00.000-07:002010-09-18T07:19:19.379-07:00"Much Prayer and Fasting"All bloggers have one thing in common. They all believe that they have something to share with some portion of the world. I think this must be true about myself. I have something to share with the world! For example; I exist as a contradiction. I am responsible and spontaneous and analytical but pathetically emotional, and my life makes perfect sense but I can't seem to make heads or tails of it. I believe that <i>we</i> (if you are human, and reading this post that means <i>you) </i>always more alike that we are different, and so I have to conclude that there are others out there also battling with the contradictions of their lives.<div><br /></div><div>My life took a very interesting turn yesterday. I choose this totally emotionless word "interesting" to describe it because that is the goal of this week. I choose to not let my ecstatic emotions such as fear, happiness, depression, excitement, and passion make my decisions for me. Yesterday I found out just how alone I am. These shocking moments of my life come in cyclic patterns, it might be pride, or money, or dramma. Apparently it is time for me to remember loneliness. </div><div><br /></div><div>As I ate my lunch, alone, today I realized that true faith lasts for about 15 mins for me. I can be thinking or praying or reading my scriptures and for 15 mins I feel the peace and reassurance that I recognize so well after all these years. However that leaves me to the rest of my day as fear slowly creeps in on me. I suppose it is easier to just say that there is a lot more I am trying to say than I am actually managing. To sum it up: I have confidence in the results of the next week. </div><div><br /></div><div>Alma 17:3</div><div><br /></div><div>Kara</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div> </div>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-1203669579852212562010-09-13T22:25:00.000-07:002010-09-14T08:45:53.453-07:00Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-28651769738546379012010-09-11T18:23:00.000-07:002010-09-11T18:56:07.294-07:00I kinda lost the "umph" that I needed to post anything for a while. The problem is that I have forgotten the purpose of this blog. This blog was designed to describe my adventures and the quest in becoming.....something, or anything. In a more simplified version, it was to let my friends and family know what I was doing :) It really has become a place where I put out into the world the thoughts that I struggle to put out there on my own. Though I haven't lost sight completely, I usually post about lessons I have learned or struggles that I need to overcome, the purpose has been lost nonetheless. <div><br /></div><div>I am SO blessed! Right now, I live with three fantastic roommates, and my cousins cat. I recently got a job, which is such a blessing, and a funny story! I work Processesing wafers in a FAB, and it is so much fun. I feel so blessed to have gotten this job! </div><div><br /></div><div>The cat and I? well, we fight a lot. But I love him to pieces. The problem is that we disagree on too many things. Like whether or not my arm is a good chew toy, or which bowl of food is his the 1) yucky brown hard stuff, or the 2) soft chicken mixed with cream of chicken and rice. Obviously, the chicken. Though overall I love having the company. He talks to me, and sleeps with me and I don't feel as lonely as I have been. </div><div><br /></div><div>My job? It is so nice to earn money. I feel much more secure than I have in months, or even years. Even still I feel so guilty every time I buy something. This can't be healthy. SO! I made a list of all the things that I am going to want in my home someday. Nice things that I may not be able to afford as a new family. Every time I buy one, I get so excited! I just bought an IRON, a rowenta so that it will last forever. </div><div><br /></div><div>I have every reason in the world to be happy. I am not trying to be selfish, just grateful. SO many blessings. </div><div><br /></div><div>K</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-40398661841861978032010-08-18T22:49:00.000-07:002010-08-18T22:58:40.344-07:00Gratitude.Gratitude is an amazing virtue. The sad thing about virtues is that the words are far too often overused. This results in a "glance over" of some of life's most important lessons. Gratitude is one of them. Here are some simple principles related to gratitude. <div><br /></div><div>1- Grateful hearts are happy hearts. Taking a moment to be grateful for your blessings makes you happy. </div><div>2- Gratitude keeps you humble. Usually humility is seen as a weakness. But humility is the antithesis of arrogance, and pride. Humility doesn't mean "poor." In fact, humility is what brings our lives and the lives of others into perspective. The richest man in the world could be humble and greater because of it, when he is grateful. </div><div>3- Gratitude is the key to effective prayers. Never forget that. </div><div><br /></div><div>Kara </div>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-41004804082958140522010-08-05T22:46:00.001-07:002010-08-05T22:46:42.997-07:00Beauty.I saw the beautiful thing again today. Why does it insist on following me?Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-32962438619150745682010-08-05T09:35:00.001-07:002010-08-05T13:47:01.262-07:00Recent InsightsI have made a few realizations about myself.<br /><br />1) I always assume that people are thinking the worst of me. Always. How awful is that? Who wants to go around always on the defensive and protective, and hurt? I really think my life would be much better if I could learn to change this habit.<br /><br />At first, I thought this was an “it takes one to know one” sort of situation. Perhaps I thought others were thinking badly of me, because I was thinking badly of them. But I have been listening to my thoughts a lot, and I really don’t believe that I do that. I think 9.46 times out of 10 I give people the benefit of the doubt. I am sure this must be a self-esteem issue.<br /><br />2) I am looking for an answer I am not going to find. I feel frustrated, like I am hitting the same problem over and over again. It is kind of like the car troubles Zach was having. No matter how many different things I try to fix, it is still not giving me the results I want. It is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">frustrating</span>, and draining. It is time for me to make the answer for myself, and start looking for new questions.<br /><br />And yet…..here I am…..still……<br /><br />3) I hate looking at beautiful things I can’t have. This is not a good thing. The reason I hate seeing it, is because I am jealous. Not "angry jealous" but "sorry for myself jealous" I should learn to be happy for others, and I really feel like I usually can be, but I think I could do better. If I could learn to rejoice for the successes and beauty of others lives I would be happier, more grateful and more appreciative for what it is that I have.<br /><br />But I have to admit…. I saw something so beautiful two days ago. It makes me heartsick to think I won’t have it. I can’t stop thinking about it!<br /><br />4) I am pretty sure that the florescent lights at work are sucking the life out of me. Not really sure what to do about that. Good thing I spend most of my time in the FAB where curiosity and learning restore the life. I love my job!<br /><br />I am glad to finally post this. I have had it waiting for quite some time.<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">kp</span>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-69722441760352542082010-08-01T01:34:00.000-07:002010-08-01T01:53:42.327-07:00Feelings.....Emotions drive me crazy. Today was a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">bizarre</span> day. I feel like I spent the majority of the day serving and working. In other words, I tried yesterday and today to be particularly <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">accommodating</span> and helpful, and do what I should. However, I had these bursts of impatience. I am not sure where they came from! I am somewhat worried about it. I did not feel myself. All I want is to be happy....... I suppose....it could be anger. I feel a little bit of anger, and I feel like it is coming out on everyone else........nah.......<br /><br />This week has taught me a lot. If you are not moving forward, you are most <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">definitely</span> moving backward. There is no stand still. This is why daily habits are so important. (Scriptures, prayer, cleaning, all of them) Also, it seems that I need to be reminded every other day, Where is my focus? It is eternal? Is is short lived? Where am I looking at the "grand scheme of things." Somehow it seems that I am always looking as just the next day. Not even to the next week......<br /><br />Also, I learned about taxes. I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">don't</span> even want to talk about it.<br /><br />I also know, after this week, some things in my life HAVE to change. Change is hard to believe in... I think that more often than not, it seems like change does not even exsist. Sometimes big things happen and it feels like nothing will ever be the same, and somehow.... it is! But I cant live like this, and I am going to work on a couple small habits, with a little faith, and hope...... and that is it.<br /><br />pKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-2387460598581140562010-07-16T15:29:00.001-07:002010-07-19T22:56:04.601-07:00Growing up......<div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjS6M07VhM-phTYa-NKUHJvbABEjPCAET4oILW_3XRP21PJMlrhyI7sDaHS_sve_3rEXUZU0pKnx_VjfBuWTAVn_1WG4KiFmQUt67Lkw40C0Jxf-1VjChxkRyDwZqGBMpYnFSFIuNMrJr8/s1600/DSCN0319.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5495862917478151090" style="WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjS6M07VhM-phTYa-NKUHJvbABEjPCAET4oILW_3XRP21PJMlrhyI7sDaHS_sve_3rEXUZU0pKnx_VjfBuWTAVn_1WG4KiFmQUt67Lkw40C0Jxf-1VjChxkRyDwZqGBMpYnFSFIuNMrJr8/s400/DSCN0319.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div>I started a new job this week! I am so glad that it is Friday! My feet hurt so bad, and I am so tired! But I LOVE IT! I really don’t have a clue how that happened! As a Process Engineer for EVGroup (a Semiconductor Manufacturer) I will spend most of my day in a clean room, possessing wafers. I get the opportunity to travel and I work with great people. So far the work seems to be reasonable, and the time passes really quickly because I am so busy with my hands! I am incredibly happy to be part of this organization.<br /><br />I hope that I can go to work with this attitude every day. I had a friend once, who never complained about going to work, because she loved it! I have never forgotten what an amazing attitude that was, and because she worked at Target, I doubt it was the company that made it that way, but her own choices!<br /><br />Still haven’t gotten my paycheck yet though……sure looking forward to that……<br /><br />Joy!!!!</div><br /><div></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAVcVNNIi2vUPFuTxj8ir-DYkymITVSGdXqlAMdwPv-ZaoS3SkcF697tDjPcTDY8RyxNqt5w9na58ZBRyCHcrXJ6vu4YjmfjdZEG_bMWGOa36NoIA0NBCLMguA0ksLuXLn3KQB0oDqU7A/s1600/IMG_2555.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5495863113668312930" style="WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAVcVNNIi2vUPFuTxj8ir-DYkymITVSGdXqlAMdwPv-ZaoS3SkcF697tDjPcTDY8RyxNqt5w9na58ZBRyCHcrXJ6vu4YjmfjdZEG_bMWGOa36NoIA0NBCLMguA0ksLuXLn3KQB0oDqU7A/s400/IMG_2555.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div></div>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-7555854989572250112010-07-10T00:03:00.000-07:002010-07-10T00:14:06.430-07:00StorybooksI met an Australian couple on a cruise, and the wife called cheesy novels "chewing gum for the mind." I was reading some of this chewing gum and realized something.<br /><br />I wish my life was a storybook.<br /><br />Decisions made in storybooks are so much easier than our decisions. Don't people realize that? Should the brother risk his life to fight in the war? YES! what a noble cause! What a hero he will surely be! Should the girl break up with her jerk of a boyfriend? Yes! Who could possibly love such an awful person! Should the main character risk loosing everything for a lover? YES! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">dont</span> they realize how rare true love is?<br /><br />But life is not like that.<br /><br />Decisions are much harder.<br /><br />The brother leaves behind a broken mother and father, and broken dreams, and comes home broken.<br />The girl's boyfriend is really a <em>true</em> sweetheart, who can just be a little nearsighted and impatient at times, and his heart is left broken. <br />The true love is simply infatuation. It dies <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">quickly</span>.<br /><br />This is why life is NOT like the stories I read.<br /><br />kKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-1719133367834195302010-07-02T15:28:00.000-07:002010-07-02T17:20:23.126-07:00Relativity.....Today as the hours were slowly, and yet not so slowly, creeping away from me; I was thinking about the relativity of time. It is amazing how when you are in an unpleasant situation time can screech on forever!<br /><br />For example: when you are waiting. Waiting is perhaps one of the most unpleasant situations of life. Not horrific or unbearable but truly, gruelingly, achingly, agonizingly, second after second after second after second......unbearable. Hence my avid hate of bus stops, boring classes, and winter break.<br /><br />Though on the other hand, those moments that are most important to us seem to slip from our fingers. It seems that we spend more time remembering and looking forward to these moments than we actually spend in those moments. Though it may be possible that this is only because the time passes so quickly.<br /><br />Here is what I am realizing. Sometimes, we want to have an effect on the passage of time. We find small ways to accomplish this; movies, sleeping, breathing slowly, and hobbies. Though I am beginning to believe that time is always traveling fast. Always. What changes is our own grasp on the time. How well we are taking advantage of the time that we are given.<br /><br />My time should be more valuable to me. My grasp on time changes when my perspective changes from past, present, and future. My goal is to be more effective, and efficient.<br /><br />KaraKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-21047454879950225892010-06-25T05:34:00.000-07:002010-06-25T05:35:41.567-07:00Prisms, and Women.<p>I discovered something today: </p><p>I have been graciously given the chance to come to Washington D.C. for a women's conference. While I have been here, I have been analyzing my outlook on women, particularly myself. </p><p>After a very enjoyable experience in the Air and Space Museum. I found myself standing in the line of a gift shop to buy a prism. You have each seen one before, a simple glass triangle that splits white light into its many colors. They really are beautiful objects, and so scientifically fasinating. </p><p>This prism perfectly describs my personallity. I enjoy science and math, and I have joy in my technical degree. I am very proud to be an Engineer, and I really believe that it is a part of my personality. Yet, I still love beautiful things. I love the science for its beauty! I love to get all dressed up, and spend hours decorating a room in a house! </p><p>This is why I believe to Organizations such as the Network of Enlightened Women. NeW provides an amazing support for conservative culture, and the attitude that feminism should have. </p><p><a href="http://www.enlightenedwomen.org/blog/">http://www.enlightenedwomen.org/blog/</a> </p><p>I got my frist blog posting on that blog, and I am very proud of it! Check it out! </p><p>Kara </p>Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-68345722641546243742010-06-23T11:17:00.000-07:002010-06-23T11:28:00.339-07:00Sweet Moments.Life can be SO hard! Sometimes it is almost impossible to see beyond your own nose. But I am sure it is not supposed to be this way.<br /><br /> I have to say that I often feel like I have more hard days that fantastic days. But today, I realize that these sweet moments are so sweet.<br /><br /><strong>JOY</strong>!Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-72354248926022900512010-06-20T16:40:00.000-07:002010-06-20T16:43:06.533-07:00Blessings!I needed to be reminded this week, that someone is taking care of me. Sometimes it is SO easy to forget, and so I wanted to remind all my readers that you aren't alone. Really, you aren't! I thought I was, but someone is watching out for all my needs and blessing me, I just have to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">sincerely</span> ask. Which, I think is a fair agreement, I can do that :)<br /><br />Kara Joy!Kara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-53996936250945840322010-06-15T10:38:00.000-07:002010-06-15T11:31:00.948-07:00meThis is me<br /> the day after yesterday<br />Now I know,<br /> that I am failing<br />This is me<br /> Wanting healing, wanting peace<br />This is not<br /> Who I was meant to be!<br /><br />I might be wrong,<br />I might be right,<br />One thing's for certain<br />I'm sick of running,<br />Running<br />Running<br /><br /><br />kpKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-68027884627708012552010-06-10T01:58:00.000-07:002010-06-10T10:33:26.056-07:00Bad Day.I once found out that there were people who actually read this blog. I was really nervous, because I have this bad habit of only posting when I am depressed. I promised myself that wouldn't happen anymore. My blog was a place for happiness and success in my quest! But I find the need tonight to break that rule. I hope my post does not scare anyone, these are the thoughts of a broken heart, but a healing one.<br /><br />Days like these are the obstacles in the quest. Sometimes, we want to disappear. Sometimes we wish it was all over. Sometimes we want to pretend it away, or ignore it. <strong>Sometimes, our minds wander the darkest of pathways.</strong> We have to acknowledge that we all cry, and scream, we all wish and wait for things to be better. We all hope, not matter how small, we pray for the daylight.<br /><br />This is part of life. Given, not to make us bitter, but to make us better. I suppose we must each learn for ourselves the silver lining, or the other door, everyone tells me is open.<br /><br />I suppose in the end, we all find our own special way to crawl back to our holes, to try and nurture the wounds. Only some of us are lions.......<br /><br />I wish I was a lion.<br /><br />As such, I am not a lion, so I crawl back into my hole.<br /><br />kKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-79598092792960665952010-06-09T00:26:00.000-07:002010-06-09T00:34:41.391-07:00What I Want (Tangent)Today, all I could think about was food..... Here is what I want<br /><br />Wienerschnizle cheese poppers<br />Ihop pankcakes, cream cheese and strowberries<br />ANY HUGE chimichanga, every type of salsa<br />Rubios fish tacos, with LOTS of lemon<br />Blizzard, french silk, please!<br />Snickerdoodles, and milk<br />Old Chicago Pizza, peperoni, why ruin a good thing? extra sauce please!<br />Hot Dogs, with relish and mustard (which is wierd, becaue i usually prefer hamburgers)<br />Grilled Cheese, perhaps a tuna melt, if you dont mind<br /><br />It is amazing how you appreciate what you dont have.......<br /><br />Hungry KaraKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7142158981609387162.post-86132235026671903502010-06-07T10:15:00.000-07:002010-06-07T17:16:20.247-07:00What I want: Part 2#1 I have been thinking about <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">friends</span> a lot. I like <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">friends</span>. I like to be surrounded by people all the time. I think what I really want is two or three close "couple" <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">friends</span>. I like the idea of have a girl <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">friend</span>, who's husband/<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">significant</span> other is a great <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">friend</span> of my husband/significant other...... A couple who is in a similar place in life, one we see often, and enjoy. Kinda like the movies, but life is never the movies. Nonetheless it is something I want.<br /><br /><br /><br />#2 I want a job. I do feel that this might be too General. One problem I have is that I have a hard time defining what I want here. But that is the point of this blog post! So here we go!<br />-Well paying!<br />-I want the job for <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">experience</span>, so I can relate to other workers.<br />-I seem to have an affinity to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">environmental</span> topics, Water purification, alternate fuels, pollution. Not sure why, but I have enjoyed the topics when they come up in school.<br />-I love the idea of lab work and research. It is learning! It may be tedious and repetitive, but I love it!<br />-I like process design<br />-I like working with people<br />-I want to stay in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">Phoenix</span><br />-I am a hard worker, and I am willing to work hard and put <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">forth</span> the work needed, but I would prefer not to work <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">ridiculous</span> hours, as I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">don't</span> want to get burnt out<br /><br /><br />#3 CAR! I think I want an SUV.....which <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">surprises</span> me. More on this when I figure it out better.<br /><br />KaraKara!http://www.blogger.com/profile/06774820606462879105noreply@blogger.com0